Since I'm no longer spending my days with Caroline and Caelyn (man, I miss those two little squishy cheeked girls!), I've found myself with plenty of free time this week.
What have I been doing with this new-found free time you might ask?
Well, cleaning. Lots of cleaning. Its been a blast really. I couldn't be enjoying myself more.
So when our church sent out a shout-out begging for female sponsors for youth camp next week, I obviously told them I was WAY too busy cleaning. All of the cleaning was just too much fun to leave behind.
Yeah, right.
I'm chunking the deuce to all this cleaning and going to youth camp next week!
I'm super excited about this because I've been praying for God to open the door for me into the youth ministry at our church and this certainly seems to be it. Can I tell you why I've been praying for this? Please let me!
This is my life's testimony and the good work that the Lord is doing and has done in my life to redeem me from myself. I'm so excited to share it with you :)
I grew up in a house with the best mother on the planet. I know that God knew just how badly I would need her and all of the beautiful memories I have of my childhood because of her. My dad, while fun sometimes, was mostly absentee or abusive. I discovered from a young age that to be present in body doesn't mean that you are present in mind. There is no need to go into any detail here because my intent is not to defame or throw blame. My desire to be loved by my father was so deeply rooted and so completely un-fed that I threw myself into pursuing fulfillment elsewhere. Sex, alcohol, drugs...nothing worked.
I just dug myself in deeper and deeper until I couldn't care if I lived or died.
That's where God found me. And He picked me up out of some crap...a lot of crap actually and gave me a firm ground to stand on. He sent me a new place to live. New friends. A new husband who shows me every day what real love looks like. A new church. A new spirit. A new heart. A new me.
This new me....this new heart remembers what it felt like all those years ago in junior high and high school to want my father's love so badly and for it to always be just out of my reach. And the saddest thing about that is: most teens these days have the same problem. This is an epidemic in the upcoming generation and God has given me a heart, and a testimony to make a difference.
Please pray for us this week as we take on Flight360!
And pray for me that my testimony can be used by the Lord in my church!
Just in case you missed it!
